Never Changing

 Strength will Rise as we wait upon the Lord:

It's never something you ever want to hear but especially at 33, that word rolling off someone's tongue is ugly and makes your skin crawl. Cancer, there it is think about the reaction when you read it. The hardest part about all of this is the mind and the places it takes you. Taking- it captive is going to be the new normal for a while. 

March 31st we heard this word and the high possibility of Jesse having cancer. Jesse had gone for a colonoscopy after having some blood in his stool for a few months. I honestly had no intention or thought of it being cancer. But after dropping him off and hearing back an hour and half later our world was changed. I got a phone call from the nurse to come in and that the Dr wanted to speak to both of us. That's never great news i thought to myself but hoping for the best went to park the van and walk in. I found where had to go and found Jesse. We sat and waited for a few mins then had some instructions from the nurse. The doctor came in and showed us a picture of what they had found.

He came right out and said he thought it was cancer, what a blow to the head. Fast forward a week and we are certain it is cancer which looks to be stage 4.  Sitting in that office hearing  the Dr say that will be a moment i will never forget. All the emotions come flooding in and our minds start to run away from us. But then we remember that we serve a God who never changes. He is near to the broken hearted and promises that the righteous shall not be shaken. It a constant battle of taking our minds captive and trusting Him as we surrender to His will. 

 I'm not going to lie this is the hardest thing we have ever been through and we know the days ahead are going to be hard, but where there is darkness light shine through. 2 Corinthians 4:5-6 says "For we do not preach ourselves but Christ Jesus as Lord, and ourselves as bond-servants for Jesus sake. For God who said, "Light shall shine out of darkness," is the One who has shone in our hearts to give the Light of the knowledge of the glory of god in the face of Christ.  Two weeks before finding out Jesse had cancer he had been working on sanding some cabinets in the garage. He had been listening to worship music and was really impacted by a song that talked about light in darkness  https://youtu.be/tCOxytz0XmQ. God was preparing Him with this song for his journey ahead. God is so faithful and true.  God has also given me a song https://youtu.be/yubLGTOcm8c that I've been clinging to. 

We will meet with an oncologist this week Lord willing and see what our next steps will be. 

I hope to continue to write with updates and things God is doing in our lives. We appreciate your support and prayers more then you will ever know. 

Jesse and Jenn 

Here are a few verse that have been giving us strength as we wait upon the Lord :

We can cast our burdens upon the Lord and He will Sustain us; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken(psalm 55:22)

Psalm 56:3-4

When i am afraid, I will put my trust in you. In God whose word i praise, In God I have put my trust, I shall NOT be afraid, what can mere man do to me?

Psalm 57:1-3

Be gracious to me, O God, Be gracious to me 

for my soul takes refuge in you,

and in the shadow of your wings i will take refuge

until destruction passes by 

I will cry to God most high

to God who accomplishes all thing for me;

He will send from heaven and save me;

He reproaches him who tramples upon me 

God will send forth His loving kindness and His truth 

Isaiah 40:29-31

Do you not know?

    Have you not heard?

The Lord is the everlasting God,

    the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He will not grow tired or weary,

    and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary

    and increases the power of weak

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,

    and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the Lord

    will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

    they will run and not grow weary,

    they will walk and not be faint

https://youtu.be/yubLGTOcm8c

https://youtu.be/tCOxytz0XmQ