Let There Be Light

I’ve been wrestling with what to say or even to do this last blog. There really are no words to express the deep hole  that is now in my life. Jesse and I were one flesh and now a half of me is gone to be with Jesus. There’s such a longing for eternity I’ve never experienced before. Everything gets put into perspective after going through the valley of the shadow of death. Being beside your best friend as he takes his final breath on earth changes you forever, to usher someone into the kingdom of heaven yet you have to stay here because your work isn’t yet complete. It was such a holy yet sorrowful moment that I will never forget the rest of my days.   Jesse’s prayer for us on that night we had a beautiful celebration to honour him was “Lord if I do go and it leaves a big hole would you fill it with you.” What profound words Jesse prayed as he knew the only way to fill that void of his absence was Jesus.  I would be lying if I said that everything is peachy and we’re doing great; that