Let There Be Light

 It's in the moments of helping my husband when he's helpless, cleaning up after the mess of 3 little's, and the needs of serving my family that I say "O God I'm not sure if I can keep doing this" and He says "yes you can dear child, just one single moment at a time."  Do the next thing, the dishes, laundry, meal times and life continues. When I look too far ahead it's daunting but how many times over the past few weeks God has reminded me that I'm here today and not to worry about tomorrow.  I probably have repeated myself a lot in these blogs but I'm preaching to myself every time that I write, it's more meant for me then you to be honest. It's been a healing outlet for me to be able to write and put it all down in words. I've made a binder and titled it "Look what the Lord Has Done for Us." I've printed all our blogs so far and have put all the beautiful cards we've been given in the binder; it's such ...

  I was talking with someone the other day and discussing the subject of death.  How our society is terrible at talking about this topic. We plan for our retirement, we plan our finances for the future but we never plan for death. Not many people talk about their wills, making sure they have life insurance and prearranging their funeral because that will never happen; especially at our age. If one thing in this life is for sure, it's that we all die no ifs ands or buts. So why don't we talk about this part that actually is so important.  I believe we have an enemy who doesn't want us to think about it and wants us to live our lives as "that will never happen." Because when we start to talk about death we have to start searching,  "is there a God? is there life after death?"  If the answer to that question is 'yes' then our life needs to change and living is no longer about us but for the glory of God. I don't know if I'm morbid but I thin...

  There's something so very humbling about walking this journey and I've been in a state of grief this past week. The grieving of starting a new chapter; that our lives will never be as they were, the grieving of starting chemo and not knowing what that will look like, the grieving of sending our kids back to school when I anticipated having them home this year.  There's so many things in our life that have been stripped away and surrendered to the Lord. Letting go is a process and has been heartbreaking for me this past week. All the things I once thought our life would be or look like have totally changed in the last 6 months. We never thought in a million years we would be walking this road full of pain and heartache yet full of joys like we've never known before.  Coming to the reality that we can't and won't be able to do everything. It's been humbling being on the receiving end of needing help instead of giving it. We can do nothing else but say "...

 We're all born and it's inevitable that one day we will die.  As soon as we're born our bodies essentially begin to fade. Like anything in this world it can either fade, die or rust away. I had an appointment earlier this month and was anxious about going by myself. But God knew, as I sat in the waiting room a friend came out from her appointment.  This couple gave me a big hug and I knew it was God's divine timing that they we're there too. This friend shared how he was just thinking of our family the day before and was going to reach out, since it's been a while. As we talked, he shared about the dash on the grave stone and how short this life is.  The Dash – By Linda Ellis I read of a man who stood to speak at a funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on the tombstone from the beginning… to the end. He noted that first came the date of birth and spoke of the following date with tears, but he said what mattered most of all was the dash between those yea...

I've been reminded over and over the past few months of how quickly I take my eyes off Jesus. Reading the story of Peter walking on the water, it's a familiar picture of my life. Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it. Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear. But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.  But when he saw the ...

 We've been busy making memories over the past few weeks. They are all we have once a person is gone. So put your phone down, let your work slide and start investing in the people you love. Love them well, hold them close and makes some memories because tomorrow isn't a guarantee.  How the days pass so fast like a summer wind here today and gone tomorrow. Taking time to really slow down and learn how to breathe,  to fully embrace this life we've been given. To sit quietly for 5 mins without doing a thing, try it....it's harder then you think. You see we've been told by society to always be busy and thinking about the next task. I'm so bad for that, I suck a sitting still. But what does it look like to "Be still and Know that I Am God"-Psalm 46:10.  Honesty I'm not sure and still trying to learn. I think it means some of the things below and not participating in the constant rat race here in North America we're conditioned to. Going on vacation ...

None of us are immune to hardship.  This past week God's been putting on our hearts to enjoy each day for what it is. Far to often we assume that we're going to grow old on this earth and live to be 90 but God never promised that.  " Be content with what you have, because God has said" Never will I leave you; Never will I forsake you." So that we confidently say, "The Lord is my helper, I will NOT be afraid. What will man do to me?" Hebrews 13:5-6  We've never been promised an easy road here on earth. We're not promised tomorrow or even the next hour. But we are promised that He will never leave us or forsake us. There is so much peace and comfort in that.  I was sent this song by my Dad this week and it spoke volumes to us as it talks about numbering our days. My Dad was in his transport truck bunk sleeping around 4am and all of the sudden his radio turned on and this song was playing. God's timing is not coincidence, it's absolutely p...