Let There Be Light

I was listening to this beautiful song early in the morning and it sums up so much of what we've been thinking and feeling. He already knows how this journey will go and He goes before us. What peace and comfort that brings to our hearts. You Already Know- JJ Heller: Everything around me seems uncertain My weary heart can't take much more surprise I wish there was a point on the horizon Something I could see with my own eyes I need to tell You that I'm scared I feel completely unprepared And nothing's what it was two weeks ago But You already know, You already know Everything I'm scared of, everything I hope You hold my tomorrow, and all tomorrow holds You already know I can't seem to find the easy answers Someday I hope the suffering makes sense I just need to know that You are with me Even if You keep me in suspense We talk so much these days Because I have so much to say You stay and listen to me closely even though You already know, You already know Everythi...

This past week has been one of those weeks where you have to laugh because everything went wrong that could go wrong. From stomach bugs to concussion with a kid to our dog getting into Amazon packages and completely destroying a new bike seat. When it rains it seriously pours. But honestly in all of this we had to laugh and say really God we are here and listening. You have to have a humor when your going through something like this in order to not cry all day. Driving down to Juravinski was sureal.  Seeing the hospital from afar and realizing this is a whole new season of our life was hard to swallow.  As for Jesse's appointment yesterday, we met with a surgeon.  The cancer is colon cancer which is a slow growing cancer (praise God). We asked many questions to which some answers he had but not all . He wants Jesse to do chemo before considering surgery as the cancer has spread to his lymphs and looks to be in his liver. (We already knew it spread) So as we digest and p...

 First of all we wanted to say thank you for all of your prayers and support. We are truly blown away by all the people praying and encouraging us. It's amazing to see the body of Christ coming together to lift us up and the people God has put along our path this week.  Its been a fairly quite week of waiting and seeking. On Saturday we had a few lovely people come and help us build a deck. It will be a place for Jesse to relax and recover . Jesse has an appointment on Wed with a surgeon. Until then we continue to wait and enjoy life as close to normal as possible.  Here are a few thoughts and things God has been teaching us. Total and utter dependence on Him that is exactly where Christ wants us. When we surrender all of ourselves to Him we truly begin to see Him move. There really is joy in hardship and suffering. The Word had come alive to us like we've never experienced . (Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because y...

 Strength will Rise as we wait upon the Lord: It's never something you ever want to hear but especially at 33, that word rolling off someone's tongue is ugly and makes your skin crawl. Cancer, there it is think about the reaction when you read it. The hardest part about all of this is the mind and the places it takes you. Taking- it captive is going to be the new normal for a while.  March 31st we heard this word and the high possibility of Jesse having cancer. Jesse had gone for a colonoscopy after having some blood in his stool for a few months. I honestly had no intention or thought of it being cancer. But after dropping him off and hearing back an hour and half later our world was changed. I got a phone call from the nurse to come in and that the Dr wanted to speak to both of us. That's never great news i thought to myself but hoping for the best went to park the van and walk in. I found where had to go and found Jesse. We sat and waited for a few mins then had some ins...