Raw and Honest


I'm going to be raw and honest in this one. Life is hard, harder than anyone can ever anticipate. When you say those wedding vows it sounds nice and wonderful. You never really expect to be hit by the "for worst" part of life, until you are. Until you are wondering if you will ever get to hold your husband again. Until you realize how quickly life can change within a split second. Life wasn't meant to be talking about funeral plans at the age of 35 or deciding where a loved one should be buried if death does come knocking sooner than later. I've said it before and I'll say it again, we're all going to die but it's what we do with that statement that matters. Life wasn't meant to be this way, we were meant to live forever in a perfect world but sin happened. It wrecked everything, yet God already knew and had a plan; a beautiful plan to save us.....Jesus.  We're so thankful that we can call on His name any time of any day and know He hears us .
The past few weeks have been an absolute train wreck but we have seen God's hand continue to move. Two weeks ago, Jesse woke me up around 11 pm with severe pain, we ended up calling an ambulance and taking him in to get examined. Long story short after a few back and forth trips to the ER and a CT scan we found out Jesse had pneumonia . I've never seen him so sick and in so much pain, it was awful to watch. Our basement also got damaged because of a toilet overflowing upstairs. I've asked the Lord a few times "how much can we take?" As much as it was a difficult experience it brought us right back again to perspective; what really matters and how short this life is.  As a result of Jesse's pain he had a CT scan and we got the results from that which were a disappointment. The scan showed the spots in Jesse's liver have grown a fair bit and two new spots appeared. His lung spots have grown a small amount . It's a reminder of what we are living and the uncertainty of it all. As Jesse and I were cultivating in the fields the other day, listening to worship and praising the Lord, Jesse said to me "there is never a too late for Jesus." No matter the circumstance we're walking through, Jesus is still good and will always be .
Jesse is planning to continue the treatment from the Doctor in Toronto that he has been seeing. We will reevaluate in July when he has another CT scan where things are at. 
We wanted to thank everyone for their support the last couple of weeks as we went through some pretty rough moments. To  see our community and friends support us was humbling and we're so grateful for you all.
We would love prayer for our upcoming trip that Jesse's health would be stable and we could make lasting memories with our family. 

In Christ, 
Jesse and Jenn 


 

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